When Food Starts Controlling You
Food is the building block of all creation; without it, we would not be considered living organisms. We’d be bacteria or viruses who complexly rely on infecting the cells of other living organisms. But were far from that, because God gave us intelligence and the ability to tastefully enjoy something called “food.”
There is no identified reason as to why some people develop eating disorders such as rumination disorder, anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder or binge eating disorder. Until more information is discovered on a neurochemical level, we can only study the behavioral patterns of those affected by eating disorders.
The majority of patients who suffer from anorexia nervosa are young, ambitious and perfectionistic females. Think of those who excel in ballerina or other competitive sports and also consistently receive straight As throughout school. They become obsessed with the idea of maintaining a certain weight and image.
At a certain point, they end up crossing an invisible line into a pathological, perfectionistic state of mind centered around weight loss and self-image. When they look into the mirror, their perception becomes distorted: rather than viewing a beautifully fit young girl, they literally see more weight on themselves than is actually there.
Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder: more weight means more effort required to lose it. So they either start to purge, which is vomiting immediately after meals or even when not eating meals, or restrict. Restricting means that they take in significantly less calories per day, to the point of becoming pathologically unhealthy.
Over time, they begin to lose dramatic weight but also develop medical complications such as: low potassium, dental erosions, anemia, arrhythmias, amenorrhea, bone loss, etc. Anyone who is suffering from this disorder cannot possibly be happy! So here comes depression, anxiety and substance abuse; in particular, alcohol and cigarettes which help take away the appetite!
When food starts controlling a person rather than the other way around, the person is being consumed by the food! The food is literally slowly devouring the person over time, to the point of when the person is becoming the meal for the food. Sooner or later, a meal always comes to an end in two ways: it’s either finished after the last piece is consumed or it’s thrown away.
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